I've just started sitting or meditating today. I did a monstrous ten minutes. It wasn’t too hard to keep my mind still but my back was burning red hot towards the last minute. My inspiration to start meditation came from Noah Levine and his Dharma Punx movement. I feel I can relate more to these people than grey haired hippie Buddhist types.
I feel myself slipping back into my addictive behavior and need something to help me on the path I've been on for the last eight months. Noah was a drug addict and used meditation and Buddhist methods to keep himself alive. I’m hoping this will work for me as well.
My life is very nice right now and I’ve worked a bit to get it this way. I would hate to loose all this due to my extreme addictive behavior. I can feel myself craving hard drugs / liqueur, and getting lazy. I know if I follow this old path I will end up with AIDS and if I don’t die I know I will wake up in rehab or jail.
So let's have at it. I guess I choose life, go figure.
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